"Day 4" Angry

My emotions are all over the place.
I am waiting for the second biopsy results to think anymore.

But today I am angry at me. The 16, 18, 20 year old me...the one who wanted to get tan at the expense of my 37 year old self. I am not even someone who was cute enough in a bathing suit to be laying out the way I did.

Of course I laid on my stomach...because my stomach up would have looked ridiculous. My back has paid the price.

I pray my husband and children don't have to pay a price for me turning my back.